August 22, 2004

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  Ugh..I am telling you. The last couple of months PMS has had NOTHING on the D (during) MS. I feel maudlin, like I have been watching an old black and white movie where the heroine dies from some wasting illness, and the lover doesn’t find out because he is away at war and the letter doesn’t reach him and he thinks she forgot about him and…   Well you get the idea.   So before I drag my crampy arse to bed I am going to write at least a dozen things that make me happy and that I am grateful for. No particular order of importance here… 1,) my handsome husband who is a fantastic friend, delightful daddy, amazing lover and hard-rocking musician. Somewhere in there goes day-time computer geek but it kills the groove 2)  my friends, among them but not limited to: Brian who never fails to make me laugh, gives me good advice on everything from motors to golf to woodworking, who is willing to pray with/for you at the drop of a hat, has a killer smile, is like a brother to me, and has one of the most genuine hearts I have ever had the pleasure to know; Shea who is as different from me as one can get yet is one of my best girlfriends because she has HEART and is real, I can talk to about anything and is always there no matter what, has the wryest wittiest sense of humor that I have ever had the pleasure to see, one of the best mothers that I have ever known, and who always has my back; Carolynne who keeps me motivated and moving no matter what it is that needs doing, another kindred decorating soul, who is so NOT a Southern girl and it is my great pleasure to mess with her Northern-raised mind, who never fails to be there for me; Terri who has been one of my best friends for over 20 years, who I have never had a "short" conversation with, who never is at a loss for words, who knows 3/4 of the county; Andrea who stays with me after hours to just laugh and laugh and laugh; Lisa who has heart and depth and who I am getting to know more each week and whom I feel I have known for ever much longer than I have; for Ray and Shelly and Donna and Cindy and Lisa and Jeff …. I have more friends than I could ever have imagined I would have, and each one I count on so much in different ways that my life would be incomplete without each of your uniqueness to complete me. Thank you all… 3.) My beautiful, talented, and sweet daughter, Brenna, who I too often forget is so precious and just plain a good kid, because I get caught up in the business of being "on top of it all" so it is done "right" Thank you for being so precious and forgive me for not taking the time to tell you as often as I should. 4.)The simple act of rubbing my face in my dogs’ fur. 5.)My home that is cool and dry, or warm and dry whatever season it may be. It is not just a place to rest my head and feet but a place where I can welcome others and make them feel they can rest and be refreshed. 6.)A vehicle that not only runs but runs well, has a/c and that I feel good about owning. That is a bonus… 7.) Music..all of it… 8.) The cool breeze that came in today and blew away the humidity and oppressive August heat of a Maryland summer. There is a spiritual parallel in there worth exploring another time. 9.) Peace. God given when I need it most, for myself and for others.    OK…I am slowing down now, both because it is later and the Motrin is making me fade and because my brain is tired. Onto 10… 10.) Color…I am grateful for colors…of flowers and grass and the brilliance of tonight’s sunset. 11.) Computers…my life wouldn’t be the same without it. Let me count the ways…but not tonight.    And last but not least… 12.) …thinking… 12.) My place of Worship. Wherever it is the Lord leads us, whether it be Grace or Living Hope, I know that He goes before us and will be eagerly waiting. Not only that but He will be walking beside us. I couldn’t ask for more….   OK..now to bed. My aim was to think about pleasant things and bury the maudlin feelings that were starting to wash over me. It seems to have helped some..   Have a blessed Lord’s Day… and no matter what, Worship Him in Spirit and in Truth!                                         Kathie

   

  
  

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