September 1, 2009

• Wrath Withheld

  If you know me personally, you would know that I am a person of a myriad of talents and accomplishments.In general, tasks come easily to me that I put my hand to. This isn't something that I have managed by sheer force of will, it just happens that this is the way God wired me. I acknowledge this and give credit where credit is due. But I will be honest in that not everything comes easy to me.I am not perfect, never have been and never will be. I am a work in progress... I am a procrastinator. I am inconsistent in tasks such as house cleaning and maintenance; projects which require a lot of follow up often just... sit far too long; following through on things to completion (think LOTS of UFOs (unfinished objects) in the craft/sewing room and many pieces of fabric that will _someday_ be made into a tasty goodie)is not my strong suit. I have more ideas than ambition to finish them.  I enjoy children but prefer middle schoolers and high schoolers to large crowds of toddlers (I think its the endless hyperness of them that gives me the twitchies?) and ... I tend to not be the most patient person in the world. No I am not generally a total bzatch, and I can walk away when I should, both good things. If someone pushes me into a corner AFTER I have warned them repeatedly and without doubt to lay off/back off/let off, and its going to get UGLY. Rudeness by cashiers or service people? Oh no...it doesn't go unremarked or just "let slide" unless its a rare day. I am not nasty or common, but the person knows in no uncertain terms that their behavior needs serious modification, and I am not above going to a manager or supervisor to make sure the behavior is brought to light and changed. At present I am dealing with two individuals in my professional life that have pushed and pushed and pushed, and I am about to GO OFF. Let me see if I can talk about this without revealing too many details.... In a professional relationship, there are manners of dealing with work-a-day procedures that need to be followed in order to complete necessary tasks efficiently, correctly and without issues arising that later bite you in the arse. I have set up protocols with clients to ensure that my arse stays unbitten. TYVM. I do not enjoy having to redo jobs for clients or dealing with problems arising due to lack of organization. While the areas I cited above apply in my personal life and hobbies, etc, they DO NOT apply to my professional associations or work that I do for clients. For some reason I have a couple of clients who think its ok to do whatever-the-hell-the-want and don't care how it affects me or anyone else. Here after I will refer to these two individuals as Dumb and Dumber . Ok perhaps that isn't the nicest moniker but if I called them what I really feel most people would be uncomfortable reading what follows. When I begin a job for clients I ask for certain information in order to complete the job correctly. I need files to do this. I need to know what needs to be done. I need to know when its needed by. I need to know any special instructions. And when its complete and I have provided the completed items I would like to know that they received the files and that everything is ok. I then bill the client for the completed job and ask for payment within 7 days. Are those things really too much to ask? Very reasonable, no? Dumb and Dumber both are either too disorganized/mindrotted/something to provide me with the above information no matter how many times I have asked for this information before starting a job. The last several jobs I have done for either of them have resulted in my having to redo items because if incomplete instructions, lack of followthrough on the requested information or total disorganization on their parts. Every FREAKIN TIME I try to reign these two in and get them organized they act like I am The Most Unreasonable Bitch On The Planet. They have no idea how Unreasonable I am about to get. The amount of money I make from D&D is not worth the stress they are causing me. The only thing that has prevented me from going all bad-ass on them so far is the restraining hand of Holy Spirit. Now before you go "there"...I do NOT let anyone walk over me. I am doing my best to be an understanding person and cut people slack because face it, we all have "moments". Unfortunately the "moments" of these two individuals have stretched into months. My husband has said "PLEASE do not let them stress you like last year. You were sick and stressed and you can't get like that again. Its not good for you and its definitely not good for the baby. I agree with him. In fact, just typing the above line my heart squeezed in my chest reminding me of the crap I went through over the busiest part of the holiday season. I am used to high pressure work: I handle it well. I handle it efficiently. I am a "foresite" person. I see the whole picture and all the ramifications, have a good long-range view without being myopic or telescopic to the point that I can't see anything else around me. I generally have patience with people who aren't wired like I am. I don't expect perfection from anyone. I just expect an effort. And a measure of cooperation. It really isn't too much to ask when I am giving a lot: time, good prices, a lot of effort, a lot of work. This past week...no.. the past three weeks both of these individuals have irritated me to the point that I have had to get up and walk away from the computer, not answer the phone and bite my tongue so I didn't say or do something on impulse that would bite me in the ass later. You can't push someone over and over and not expect a negative response. The nice response is going to be " I am sorry. For the foreseeable future I won't be able to do work for you. WIth being pregnant and having my own work, I have to set something aside. After praying and thinking on it this is what I have to set aside." If I react with pregnancy hormones the response is going to be "Guess what? I am D O N E. I can't work with disorganized prima donas that think that the world stops to stand up an bow because they are walking by. I do and do for you and you expect more and more. You refuse to listen, you expect me to do what you want no matter what the consequences are going to be, then when the VERY obvious negative happens, you get pissed at ME?! What the hell. FInd someone else to abuse. I am OUT OF HERE." While the 2nd response isn't as professional MAN would it be SO MUCH more satisfying. muahahahah Oh and by the way, Dumb and Dumber leave a trail of irritation and devastation around them constantly, so it is NOT just my association that is rife with trouble. I just happen to have cut them more slack for longer. Guess what? The slack in the rope is G O N E. Now its a noose..and they are about to hang themselves with it. I am not cutting them down next time it tightens, and I am not above kicking the stool out from under their feet either.     Swing baby swing.     Wrath Withheld for too long can become a very venomous thing. The danger gets greater andthe bite and sting when delivered are more likely to be fatal. My fangs are out and sharpened, and there won't be an antidote for the bite this time.

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